I have no idea what I should put in this post

school's been out since the 3rd.
so.
um. hi?
:)

crushcrushcrushx3

yes, x3
cause this needs to be updated more. (:

LRC: Billy
ENGLISH: Roger
MATH: None
GYM: None
LSC: None
LUNCH: green jacket guy
WEB DESIGN: None
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: None
BIOLOGY: Chris
OTHER: Will
:D

if you'd just realize what I just realized

that we'd be perfect for each
other & we'll never find another

LRC: not much.. um, I talked to Billy a little bit. xD
ENGLISH: stupid paragraph stuff. :[
MATH: some other easy thing.
GYM: I had to play with some person who hates me :x
LSC: read {catalyst}
LUNCH: almost didn't get to sit..
WEB DESIGN: right now. we got a free day
so I'm DISin' and..blogging. :D
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: I'm gonna watch a movie
BIOLOGY: do some..flash card thing. funnnn.... >.>
LISTENING TO: lucky-jason mraz & colbie calliat
[ps: I might get to see Will after this] (:

'Cause she's bittersweet, she knocks me off of my feet

& I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else

I keep on forgetting about blogger. xD
ummmmm..let's see....
LRC: We had a sub.
ENGLISH: I fucking hate To Kill A Mockingbird. Umm..idk, I just..like don't like it. D=
MATH: We did some easy thing. I finished the hw. xD
GYM: we played pickleball. tg my partner wasn't the Jack look a like. it was the
otherrrrrr peer leader. some girl..with a very amazing last name.
listen to this. MCHALE! best fucking last name I've ever heard. ISWEAR. xD
LSC: we read
LUNCH: I thought was gonna suck. I got a seat today. surprisingly. :o
WEB DESIGN: sitting next to Robert makes me happy. xD
I was shocked. like one day he gave me a hug. XD
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: lit circle day. nothing interesting.
BIOLOGY: I was talking to Delaney about prom. :D ummmm...hmm
BUT GUESS THE FUCK WHAT? Delaney told me Julia still flirts with Will! WTFFFF.
ugh. they like..already broke up. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM WILL, JULIA. SRSLY. =[

BLOG TiTLE SONG: Just The Girl-The Click Five
LiSTENiNG TO: I'll Be-Edwin McCain.
wait. no.
How To Save A Life-The Fray. (:

o_O

woaaaah.
I haven't updated
in like..forever D:

BEORE LRC: IIIIIIIIIII SAAAAW JOEE. WOOOO. xD
LRC: umm. nm.
ENGLISH: I had to do my presentation about this Waco fire.
I think I did good. I hope... :/
MATH: we had a sub. I wasn't paying attention
at all. xDD
GYM: David wasn't here today.
*YAY* SO, my partner was
this one guy that reminds me a lot of Jack.
xD he's a senior..student..teacher..person. YA
w/e. we played pickleball. I suck.
BEFORE LSC: I SAW JOE. AGAINN.
(no, I ain't stalking the poor boy!) xD
LSC: funniest. thing. ever.
I was reading this book. first sentence:
"Mama, are you a virgin?"
OMGLOL. this is coming from a 11
year old. hahaha. I thought that was the best.
LUNCH: ummmm..nothing.
WEB DESIGN: computers are still down..xD
Robert and I were having fun with google earth.
(well, it didn't work, but he was talking to me by
taking the keyboard and typing it..)
"im bored...i want pizza..wait, no..i want soda" xD
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: I get to read this one book
that I wanted to read.
BIOLOGY: I fucking hate bio. no explaining.
I just hate it. Not the class. The students.

the world has it's shine

but I would drop it
on a dime for you♥

you know what?
I actually think
things can work
out between Will
& I. Maybe. Just
maybe. If I'm
lucky enough.
(:

snowball.

why not take a crazy chance?
Snowball is a camp where you make
"friends." I made one friend,
and I haven't spoken to him since.
------------------------------
I hate/love snowball. When I think
of snowball, I think of my friend, Erich.
I don't think about all those other girls
at snowball. that were in my group.
The one memory I remember the most:
It was after we finished watching a skit
about friends departing and stuff.
We had to write a journal afterwards.
I wrote my true feelings about how
no one ever talks to me and how people
don't see what I'm really like. We had
to share them afterwards. My snowball
leader read all of them out loud. I wrote
"The part that got me the most was when the
friends started drifting away. I'm one of
those people that get drifted away from. Not
that many people talk to me at school. I just
sit there at school and watch people and
their friends talk and laugh. I'm actually
really fun to talk with. But nobody
really seems to notice that."
After he read that, I started crying.
Everyone just..stared at me.
No one said a word.
No one cared.
No one didn't even hug me,
like most people if it was
depressing or whatever, they'd
get a hug. or a sorry. something.
but nope. not me. I don't get anything.
at all. it was the most depressing part
of my entire snowball trip. that's all
I remember. there weren't that many
"good" parts to my trip. I wish I could go
back. I don't know why. Maybe next time
I can actually...I dunno, get a friend? :/

this is the moment that we will come alive

brace yourself for love,

ever had one of those days where you just KNOW
that today is gonna be a good day? well, today
was one of those days. :D
LRC: Billy gave me a piece of gum! (:
ENGLISH: research.
MATH: some other easy thing. :D
oh and I told Ashley about Jack, too. xD
GYM: some crab game. idk. D:
LSC: homework. read.
LUNCH: I talked to Paige.
WEB DESIGN: my computer for web design
got a virus. oh noz. so I had to sit by some
other random kid. XD
AFTER WEB DESIGN, BEFORE GLOBAL: I knew..I just..KNEW
in my heart that I was going to see Will today. and I did..he walked
past me today. he got a haircuttttt. it's messed up now. *sigh* so sad.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: it was interesting.
we talked about propaganda and Hitler Youth.
it was pretty cool. :D plus, I talked A LOT today.
BIOLOGY: we did this bigg packet the entire time. o_o
DELANEY WAS BACK, THOUGH! my bestest bio buddy. (:
LISTENING TO: Secret Valentine-We the Kings (duh)

sweet love, secret love♥

cause I'd die for you

on skyway avenue♥

BEFORE SCHOOL: *spazzattack* I. SAW.
JOEEEEEEEEEEE. omgomgomg. but David was
theretooo..like later on by his locker.. ew.... =[
LRC: stupid sub. D:
ENGLISH: I made Roger happy by trading topics for a project. (:
MATH: uhh..easy stuff, actually.. =D
GYM: we had to walk 3000 steps. or run. whatever
you have to do to get to 3000 steps. oh & David still likes me
I think. omg. he asked me what I was doing this weekend.
D: eww I. hate. him. so. fucking. much. D:<< LSC: read.
LUNCH: uhm. not much? XD
WEB DESIGN: We..did project builders & I finished BOTH of them.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: New seat! :D in the fronnnnnnnnt. WOOOO
BIOLOGY: no Delaney. very very sad... =[
LISTENING TO: Hot N Cold-Katy Perry
PS: I'm talking to Will & Jack now. pwned. XD

so pick your posion [part 2: 3/25/09]

& pour yourself
a glass, oh, oh
I, I, still feel
the same..I, I...

AFTER WEB DESIGN, BEFORE GLOBAL: I..didn't see Will. I thought
I would, but..I didn't. :/
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: we talked about
Schindler's List. XD
BIOLOGY: I had to go to some other..room..IDK
but I checked there and like
that room didn't exist.. C323, but she meant
B232. I was late for bio. owellll. Delaney
wasn't there either...

these are the fast
tiiiiiiiiiiiiiimes, these are
the fast tiiiiiiiiiiiiiimes(:

:/

I shouldn't be on.
I'm in Web Design.

LRC: not much. Tim said he liked my hair though. O_O

ENGLISH: quiz.

MATH: worksheets.

GYM: catching.

LUNCH: sucked. I spent the entire time

crying in the bathroom. When I came back,
for a few minutes..I was standing there
at the table..but..no one saw me and cared.
so I just looked at green jacket guy for a sec
and then I went back into the bathroom.
Then I stared crying again.. =/

WEB DESIGN: right now..typing

this pathetic blog. and after that

I have to see Will. olord. D:

editt: I was doing this with people that COULD have been watching me,
so I couldn't be that specific. xD

the list..is life

♥

LRC: not much.
ENGLISH: we took a quiz and then LOCKDOWN
ohnozzzz. XD then we got to skip the quiz, yay. (:
but my bitch english teacher changed our seats. mine isn't
near Roger's anymore. =[
SCHINDLER'S LIST: I sat at Katie
and Paige's table while we ate. xD I SAW
WILL! [aka William #2] I SAW HIM WHILE I WAS
GETTING MY FOOD AND THEN I SAW HIM AFTER I
WAS GETTING MY FOOD! AND..AND..WE WERE
SITTING IN THE SAME ROW (but he was on the right hand side,
and I was on the left..) so I was staring at him a lot. :D

okay, so, uhm..about that movie...it's not great. I didn't like it.
too much killings. hangings. lots of shootings.. =[

PS: I figured out Will/William2 has a fb. I added him. =D

'cause I'm living in fast forward

hillbilly rockstar
outta control :]

LRC: hmmmm..not much. :x
Tim was like.. "I love
everyone here....except
Allison and Billy. they're heartless."
psh. we'll be heartless together
*rolleyes* XD
ENGLISH: we were in the library,
but I saw Roger walk to the classroom
so I followed him and I told him that
we weren't in the classroom.
[I KNOW. CAN YOU FUCKIN BELIEVE IT?
I ACTUALLY TALKED TO HIM! xD]
Me: "I think we're in the library today.."
Roger: "I don't know.."
Me: "I'm gonna go check the door. Yeah, it says library."
Roger: " 'kay."
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. =D
MATH: half the people weren't here.
I couldn't find my homework. I KNOW
THAT I DID IT. I SWEAR..ugh. whatever.
GYM: we did push up & sit up testing.
David tried talking to me afterwards. :x
I got a "exceeds" for sit ups & a "average"
for push ups. xD
LSC: we read. I got a new book called
someone like you by Sarah Dessen.
It's pretty good so far. =D
LUNCH: half the people weren't there, either.
[they were watching Schindler's list]
but green jacket guy wasn't. he was still
there. he kept on staring at me. I couldn't
eat cause of it. (I hate it when people
stare at me while I eat..even though I do
the same thing. xDD)
WEB DESIGN: lesson stuff.
AFTER WEB DESIGN BUT BEFORE GLOBAL: I. saw. WILLIAM! =D
[he's this one guy who had a crush on me who reminds me of William
Beckett..I was in the nurse's office cause I got hit in the face with a basketball
yeahhh..don't ask :x but my mom said that he went to my mom's register
one day and asked her if I was okay. I was like "awww"]
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: oholyfck. quiz. FAILLLLED IIIIIT.
BIOLOGY: Delaney and I were like so hyper. xD
We were singing the waffle song. Again. =D
HOMEWORK: math.
LISTENING TO: nothing. :O
SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: trouble-nevershoutnever!

we'll write a song that turns out the lights...

when both boy and girl start
suddenly shaking inside♥

LRC: my lrc teacher wasn't here today. aw.
ENGLISH: we...read. and talked about the book.
MATH: we did target make-ups.. (for like things
we didn't get, we got an extra chance to get a better
grade for it..) I didn't get enough time to finish it
so I was gonna finish it in LSC.
GYM: I did that hoops for heart thing! (:
a lot of people did, actually. haha. I suckkk
at basketball, though. I was in Katie's,
Paige's, and Tyler's little "group" (I always
wanted to be in their group. idk, they seem like
a good group..and I know all of them well
except for Tyler..but their 'leader' hates me
for some reason. :/ I wanted to join
their relay for life group but ALEX is going
to be there and I don't think she wants me
to be there. :(
LSC: I was working on my make-up..thing. yeah. boring. =[
LUNCH: holyfuckingshit. I just saw my WORST FUCKING NIGHTMARE.
today. at lunch. D:< I WAS WALKING TO MY USUAL TABLE, YOU KNOW,
WHERE I GET IGNORED AND STUFF! AND..HOLYFUCK! HI SHAWN
WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU IN MY AREA BY MY LUNCH TABLE GETTING
FOOD? SHOULDN"T YOU BE CUTTING YOURSELF? I saw him and I was like
"OFUCK!" terrible. I almost threw up, too...
[maybe I really am like Melinda.. >.>]
WEB DESIGN: free day.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: finishing that reading packet.
Grant read it though, so it was really easy. just listening. XD
BIOLOGY: some-creepy/scary/fucked-up bio teacher
was here today. I hate her. stupid lazy/should be retired sub!
Delaney and I wrote on Mirik's bell ringer. She wrote
"DO YA LIKE WAFFLES?
DO YA LIKE PANCAKES?
DO YA LIKE FRENCH TOAST?"
I was like "WAIT! YOU DIDN'T FINISH THE SONGGGGG, DELANEYYYYYYY!"
SO. I wrote:
"YA WE LIKE WAFFLES!
YA WE LIKE PANCAKES!
YA WE LIKE FRENCH TOAST!
DODODO. CAN"T WAIT TO GET A MOUTHFUL!"
Mirik was like "What the fuck did you do to my bellringer?!?!"
I was like "Nothinggg. DELANEY AND I WROTE. THE BEST SONG. EVER.
ON YOUR PAPER!"
He was like "YEAH BUT MY PARENTS ARE GONNA BE LIKE 'what the fuckkk?!
french toast? wtffffffffffff' " I was like "YOUR PROBLEM. NOT MINE"
:D

And truth be told I miss you...

And truth be told I'm lying!

BEFORE SCHOOL: Tegan and I were
just walking in..NO BIG DEAL.
AND THEN. BAM! OHAI ROGER. XD
I almost walked into some other person
cause I was too busy staring at him. :D
LRC: I did comprehension stuff!
and the teacher was saying about
how "good" I am. xD [SECOND
TIME SO FAR..] =O
ENGLISH: read night. it's a good book.
but the cover scares me. [hangings]
MATH: we took a test. I did kinda good on it! :)
GYM: LAST. DAY. OF. SWIMMING.
*yay* xDD my teacher knows I'm not gonna
make up the rest of the days though. owell. idgaf.
Dan: "so..dude..it's the last day of swimming."
Me: "YEAH! I KNOW! I'M SO HAPPY!"
Dan: "I'm so happy, too, dude, you know
I'm doing that basketball thing. PLUS! I get
EXTRA CREDIT!"
Me: "Yeah, and I'm not making up those other
days from last week...so..maybe it'll help"
Teacher: *glares at me*
"You're not making those up?"
Me: "Uhm..no.."
Teacher: *looks at me as if I spoke a forgein language* :|
Dan: "hahaha niceee"
Me: "damnn.. owelll.." xD
LSC: I read night.
LUNCH: I figured..that..you know..green jacket guy
would be eating lunch at the Mustang Grill [the place
that's like right where we sit at..] BUT NO. he got
food at the other side. and omg. I was walking and
I almost walked RIGHT into him. I was like "OSHIT" O_O
WEB DESIGN: project stuffff. I finished it though. :]
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: we had to read this big packet
but I listened to Grant read it. [so did half the other class!]
BIOLOGY: we got our tests back. B. :)
♫
When you see my face, hope it gives

you hell, hope it gives you hell.

:o

I keep on forgetting about this!

BEFORE SCHOOL: late start. Tegan
came over and then we both went to
Al's house and hung out there. then we
went to school, but then they ditched
me. we met up with Delaney, too
(on accident, though..xD)
LRC: not much.
ENGLISH: we read. we're reading night. some holocaust book. great! =[
MATH: easy stuff. :D
BEFORE GYM: I was walking and then BAM!! GREEN JACKET GUY.
LESS THAN FIVE FEET AWAY FROM ME. O_O scared the shit outta me. XD
GYM: we had to do this packet. DAVID kept on talking to me.
omfg. leave me the fuck alone David. I HATE YOU. SRSLY! UGHGOD!
but, I made a new friend named Dan! he showed me his old school
picture. he had loooooong hair. (HE LOOKED HOT, TOO! but now..
it's just like..ehh..hahaha. I didn't tell him that though) XD
LSC: /rant I read night.
LUNCH: I was staring at green jacket guy a lot annnnnnnnd..he was looking at me, too :o
BEFORE WEB DESIGN: I saw a guy with a jacket that looked like Brandon
but it wasn't him. so I was sad. and then someone said my name. I turned around.
OFUCKHAIBRANDON! he was like RIGHTINMYFUCKINGFACE. and we talked
for a few minutes. IT WAS NICE. XD
WEB DESIGN: ehh..project. stuff.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: teacher wasn't there. WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
BIOLOGY: packet thingy. xD
HOMEWORK: english & math.
LISTENING TO: young-Kenny Chesney

I forgot about my blog for a few days

:o

yesterday I went to plato's closet with Tegan.
afterwards we went to cici's pizza. I was soo
cold afterwards though. I bought three shirts
at plato's closet, though! :D two of them were $5
and another one was only $3! I was like :o I really
wanted shoes, but I couldn't find any that were my
size..or anything that I liked. I was sooo hot afterwards
though. omg. and then I took a shower, then I was really
cold. :( I feel fine now, but I have a headache. D: I took some
aleve, but it doesn't really help that much. at. all.
LISTENING TO: Vacation-Simple Plan
[bad times with this song. really bad]

crushcrushcrushx2

version TWO
of crushcrushcrush

LRC: William
ENGLISH: Roger
MATH: uhhmmmm..mayybeeeee..Nick..maaaaaaaybe..XD
GYM: I can't remember his fucking name. It starts with a R...XD RILEY!
that's it. (:
LSC: none!
LUNCH: green jacket guy. xD
WEB DESIGN: Ryan (ithinkhe'sgaythough..hisvoice...hesoundsgayyy)
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: Grant (FRED LOOK A LIKE!)
BIOLOGY: Chris
OTHER: Brandon, and Joe..xD

PS: my bio teachers now knows I like Chris
isn't that lovely? :[
[she saw me staring at him & she was like looking at me all like "awww" crapp]
PPS: Which can't be bad cuz like..my english teacher knows I like Roger
so she always puts my seat by his. ALWAYS. =D

run baby run, don't ever look back

they'll tear us apart if
you give them the chance

LRC: we checked our grades. I'm passing everything. :D
my teacher gave me a high five and so did Tim. XD
ENGLISH: I already finished the clique book so I had
to like read that over and over for the rest of the period.
MATH: OMG!! IT'S PI DAY! 3.14..WHATEVER THE
OTHER FUCKING NUMBERS ARE. HOLY SHIT!
..I don't care about pi day, and it's actually tomorrow.
but I won a pie and this uhh..resse's peanut butter cup. :D
GYM: we had to tread water. and omg. I was actually
able to do it with a life jacket. YAY ME!! *CLAPS*
LSC: we did this journal...
LUNCH: green jacket guy, did you die?!?! I MISS YOU. :(
WEB DESIGN: I had to present my website. I think I did
a pretty good job on it. at least I hope so. ocrap. I should
check my grades pretty soon..XD
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: went off topic for 20 minutes.
but then we got lots of homework. fucking teacher! D:<
BIOLOGY: we did some packet thing...again..yeah. I finished
it and I finished my global in there, too. so haha. pwned. (:
HOMEWORK: none!
LISTENING TO: heartland-celtic thunder

don't sell your heart,
don't say "we're not meant to be"
run baby run
forever will be, you & me

swing, swing, from the tangles of...

my heart is
crushed by
a former love

LRC: William came back! :] yayayayayayayay. xD
ENGLISH: we took a test. it wasn't thaaat hard.
MATH: another test. I did..KINDA good on it? :D
GYM: we did this fun thing in gym. yes, we are
still swimming. we have these things where like
we have these objects and we have to get all of
our members on it. I had to ride a noodle. ohya,
how cool. lmfao. I had a life jacket on though, so
I was fun. we won the game, too. this one guy
rolled off my back. omg it was so terrible! but
Megan was in my group, so it was fun! haha
LSC: I worked on my english hw. the end of class
comes and then some random teacher came in.
she was like "wow, that's a lot of students." I
was still packing and he was like.. "Yes, but I like
this one the most" *points to me* "She always
does her homework, she gets good grades, she's
a hard worker, never causes any trouble" I was like.. ":D?" xD
LUNCH: no green jacket guy. come backkkk.
I miss staring at you during lunch! there's no
one else to stare atttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! XD
WEB DESIGN: last day to finish our website. already finished it.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: some really really really big packet.
BIOLOGY: some fun lab..thing..yeah..test on tuesday.
HOMEWORK: english. biology.
LISTENING TO: Gives You Hell-The All American Rejects

can you help me find
a way to carry on again?

broken hearts & a lie

You said you’d be here for me forever,
But I guess that was just a lie.
Where are you now?
You’re out there loving someone else,
And that hurts. I know, that I should
Move on, and I will, but I am just confused.
One day we’re fine, and the next day
You tell me that you don’t love me anymore.
How do you think I feel?
You know what it feels like to be
Alone, you know that you were my
Entire world, so what do you do?
You break my heart in a thousand
Of pieces, and watch me suffer from all
The pain. You said that you didn’t want to
Hurt me. Oh, really? Why did you break
My heart? I’ll find someone new.
I will, someday, and I bet that he’ll be
Better than you. Because you were right,
You don’t deserve me. You don’t deserve him.
You don’t deserve anyone.

I just wrote this out of anger..
I dunno..I just needed to vent
out my feelings..and I did. >.>

no one's gonna stay inside [part 2: 3/11/09]

so we're
just

singing

GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: we took a test.
BORINGG. I sucked at it.. blahh :(
BIOLOGY: shitload of hw. seriously.
1. huge packet
2. online thing
3. this other review worksheet

LISTENING TO: We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands Tonight-TAI...

hold your head high heavy heart,

so take a chance,
& make it big cause
it's the last you'll
ever get.

LRC: no William. depressing. :(

ENGLISH: the alchemist sucked. we have a test on it tomorrow.
MATH: hard stuff. I ALMOST finished the hw. almost.

GYM: basketball. swimming. yay. >.>

LSC: I got help with math...

LUNCH: stared at green jacket guy. he's around my height. :D

WEB DESIGN: blogging and typing this?
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: we have a test. *WATCHES

SELF FAIL TEST* I'm barellly passing it anyway

but it'll pwn..with my new cobra buddy. XD

BIOLOGY: no clue what we're doing in there..

LISTENING TO: The Phrase That Pays-The Academy Is...

great song. :D

part two?

I didn't get to finish lunch!

LUNCH: so..eating..yeah..blahblahblah..staring at
green jacket guy..and then he looked back once. I was like "OSHIT" XD
WEB DESIGN: blogged? (:
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: not much...some..packet..thingy
we have a test tomorrow. fun, right?! ohya, I made a new
cobra friend. Her name is Danielle. :D
BIOLOGY: we got to use a discussion board.
so much fun. =D

PS: we had daylight's savings time.. 'kay?
and then my dad didn't switch them, so
my mom didn't pick me up for school,
so I had to walk home. in the rain. my
shoes and my entire outfit was like soaked!

part one?

HAHAHAHA.
I'm at school.
Blogger isn't blocked. (:

LRC: I had to go to speech..xD
I read Invasion Of The Boy Snatchers though.

ENGLISH: reading..uh..we're

finishing the alchemist tomorrow.

MATH: lots of hw. I finished some of it.

GYM: swimming. joy!

LSC: I worked on my math hw

LUNCH: stared at green jacket guy

WEB DESIGN: class I'm in right now

typing this blog. :D

cobrah cam

came back for a few minutes. XD
I got my SIGNED cobra shirt, today.
I'M SO EXCITED! :D I'm wearing it
to school tomorrow. PLUS, NEW
FACEBOOK PICTURE. WOO! (:

don't forget

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

**okay, so I lied.
I forgot about this
song and I wanted it
on here before I forgot
about it**

you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

**Taylor's lyrics
are so powerful.
To me, at least.
Her songs help
a lot, too. That's
it for tonight. I
have school
tomorrow**

no reins

She left that loser in a dust cloud
Heart in his hand, chin on the ground
Cried her last tear for that clown
She can see a little clearer now
She said, "Oh, oh, I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free

CHORUS
Like a painted wild mustang
Flyin' out across the open range
Finally gets to live her life that way
No fear, no fences, nobody - no reins

No reins no reins

All she's ever felt is held back
She says, "It's kinda nice to hear myself laugh"
She's gonna do a lot more of that
She's makin' plans and makin' tracks
She said, "Oh, oh I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free

Repeat Chorus

Oh-oh she's learnin' how to let go
Oh-oh which ever way the wind blows
Oh-oh she's learnin' how to let go (learnin' how to let go)

Repeat Chorus
No reins

**this song should help.
it helped me in the past..
with a few people..
thank you rascal flatts**

don't think I don't think about it

I left out in a cloud of taillights and dust
Swore I wasn't coming back, said I'd had enough
Saw you in the rear view standing, fading from my life
But I wasn't turnin' 'round
No not this time

But don't think I don't think about it
Don't think I don't have regrets
Don't think it don't get to me
Between the work and the hurt and the whiskey
Don't think I don't wonder 'bout
Could've been, should've been all worked out
I know what I felt, and I know what I said
But don't think I don't think about it

When we make choices, we gotta live with them
Heard you found a real good man and you married him
I wonder if sometimes I cross your mind
Where would we be today
If I never drove that car away?

Don't think I don't think about it
Don't think I don't have regrets
Don't think it don't get to me
Between the work and the hurt and the whiskey
Don't think I don't wonder 'bout
Could've been, should've been all worked out
Yeah I know what I felt, and I know what I said
But don't think I don't think about it
Don't think I don't think about it

Don't think I don't think about it
Don't think I don't have regrets
Don't think you don't get to me
Between the work and the hurt and the whiskey
Don't think I don't wonder 'bout
Could've been, should've been all worked out
I know what I felt, and I know what I said
But don't think I don't think about it, no no

Don't think I don't
Don't think I don't

I guess I always knew..

..that I always had the
strength to make it through

LRC: we checked our grades. I'm doing fine...
it was so funny. I was walking back to my seat
and I ACCIDENTLY-isweartogod..accidently-STEPPED
ON TIM'S SHOE. AND HE FUCKIN SPAZZZZZZZZZZZED.
hahaha. and then William had baby pictures. I was looking
at them. HE WAS SUCH A CUTE LITTLE BABY!! AWWWW
ENGLISH: we got our paragraphs back. I got an A on it! :D
I finished the Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-Time.
Now I'm reading the next Clique book. [Invasion Of The Boy Snatchers]
MATH: review sheet. homework. I finished it.
GYM: I watched everyone play games. David STILL tries
to fucking talk to me. leave me the fuck alone, David.
LSC: we had to write a journal.
LUNCH: ohmyfreakinggod. it's warm today. so I wasn't
wearing my North Face. and...green jacket guy wasn't wearing
his green jacket. he was wearing some black shirt. I was trying
to see what was on it, but I couldn't.. xD
[i'mgonnabepissedifhe'sanothershawn...]
WEB DESIGN: I almost finished my web site. =D
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: uhh..not much. xD
Grant [thisonehotguythatremindsmeoffred]: "I SWEAR TO GOD!"
Noah [thisoneguythatremindsmeofthepennynoah] "You shouldn't swear to God"
Maddie [myfriendfromenglish] "YEAH. YOU TELL HIM NOAH. SINCE YOU'RE
LIKE...HOLY AND ALL"
Grant: "What?"
Maddie: "He's like..NOAH. HE'S LIKE..A GOD!"
Grant: *laughs hysterically*
Noah: "oh yeah, Maddie..I haven't heard that
one before.. At least you didn't mention
NOAH'S ARK!"
Me: *laughs*
BIOLOGY: biology was fun. Delaney and I were annoying
the shit out of Mirik.

Delaney: "DO YA LIKE WAFFLES?"
Me: "YA WE LIKE WAFFLES!"
Delaney: "DO YA LIKE PANCAKES?"
Me: "YA WE LIKE PANCAKES!"
Delaney: "DO YA LIKE FRENCH TOAST?"
Me: "YA WE LIKE FRENCH TOAST!"
Delaney and I: "DODODO. CAN'T WAIT TO GET A MOUTHFUL!
WAFFLES! WAFFLES! DODODODO. CAN'T WAIT TO GET A MOUTHFUL!"
Mirik: "wtf...you two are soooo weird.."
<15>
Delaney: "DO YA LIKE WAFFLES? YA WE LIKE WAFFLES.
DO YA LIKE PANCAKES? YA WE LIKE PANCAKES!"
me: *laughs hysterically* hahaha. xD

HOMEWORK: english.
LISTENING TO: the waffle song. duh.
PS: I'm leaving for MO on Saturday. I'm coming back on Monday.
So I won't be on..how sad, I know. :(

If you thought I would leap into your arms everytime I would see your face

Then maybe you, you
should've tried harder..

BEFORE LRC/LRC: I had to go to the nurse's office
so I can get my pass to not swim for gym.
They said I had to call my mom, so I did.
She didn't answer back, so I called again.
This time she answered. soooo..she agreed
and then I got the pass. I wasted 20 of 50
minutes because it took so long. UGH. I come
back and then my teacher was like "OHAI"
and then I gave him the pass. I told him I
was in the Global resource and he was like
"That's fine, just tell me before you go"
ENGLISH: uhh. not much.
MATH: test. bomed it. owell. xD
GYM: I watched them play a game. fun, right?!
I talked to this one guy. He was like "GIRL,
YOU'RE STILL NOT SWIMMIN'? I TOLD YOU
TO AT LEAST GET CHANGED SO YOU CAN GET
SOME POINTS. YOU KEEP ON GETTIN' ZEROS!"
I was like "Hey, you want blood in the pool?" XD
he was like "WOAH. NONONONONO. YOU DIDN'T
HAVE TO PUT IT THATTT WAY!" and this other guy
was like "WHATTT?" I was like "NOTHING!" XD
LSC: I read my book. I'm close to finishing it. :]
LUNCH: ehh...green jacket guy was there? and I soo
wasn't staring at him. XD
WEB DESIGN: I'm finishing up my website..
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: lecture. fun.
BIOLOGY: some packet..watch videos..
write down answers...yeah..fun

HOMEWORK: english. global.
LISTENING TO: Should've Tried Harder-Hey Monday
(oh, I forgot to mention..thanks to Sam, I like Hey Monday, now, too) :D

here comes goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and youre left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

help me remember

I know that you're leavin'
As soon as the sun
Comes through the window
There's no talking this over
The damage is done
There's just too much hurt
Too much to forgive
Oh, but we both know
We were'nt always like this

[CHORUS]
Help me remember
The way that we used to be
When nothin' else mattered
"cause you were lovin' me
Just for the night, one last time
One more good memory
When I look back
That's what I wanna see

Oh, help me remember

Those days that were so good
Those nights that we held
Held on forever
When we weren't pretenders
We were as real as we felt
Oh, I don't want to fight anymore
Don't want the last thing I hear tonight
To be a slammin' door
Baby, let it be like before

[Repeat Chorus]

This could be the last time
I look in your eyes

Help me remember
The way that it used to be
When nothin' else mattered
'Cause you were lovin' me
Oh, help me remember
Oh, help me, help me
Oh, oh, oh, oh-

[FADE]

hot n cold

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

evenwhenwe'remiles&milesapart

You're still holding all of my heart
I promise it will never be dark
I know..we're inseparable

LRC: skipped. no. really. I was doing something for global in another room. XD
ENGLISH: boring shit..I need to read.. blahh :(
MATH: easy stuff...tomorrow we have a test. great.
GYM: we have swimming. I have my period. I can't swim. D: <
LSC: nothing. peer..stuff..yeahidunno. >.>
LUNCH: I was staring at green jacket guy :]
WEB DESIGN: we have to create our own website. fun. XD
GLOBAL CONNECTONS: packets..again.
BIOLOGY: uhh..not much

widowpictures

MODEL! oh. I'd lovvvvvvvvvve to see that! :D

aww damn. the image won't pop up.
it's funny.
"What are you looking at?!" XD

widow

from the tv show dog eat dog

he's pretty FUCKING amazing!
I love him!
:D

widow'smynewemoboyfriend
:]

welcometothenewadministration!

I'm talking to Jess
from the TB &
we might meet
up at WDW.
:D

Plus,
we're
playing
WDW
simulation
games.

thesearethefasttimes...

I actually have great news.
(:
I was looking around on iLike on facebook.
TAI is coming to a county fair! :D
I asked my parents if I could
go and they said that I
probably can since
it's in the summer.
And guess what else?
I was looking at the
FBR webstore &
they had a SIGNED
cobra starship shirt
and I asked my dad
if I could get it and
he said that I can
if I go through all
of my drawers &
find the shirts
that don't fit
or that I don't
like. So I took
two hours doing
that, and then he
ordered the shirt
for me. I think
it's going to be
an Easter gift,
though. I dunno
when I'm going to
get it. I still
need a freaking
TAI shirt too
for the concert.
1 more good news:
I was sleeping
and then I got
woken up.
Dad: "psst."
Mom: "whatt"
Dad: "psssst"
Mom: "WHAT?!"
Dad: "What snuggie
should we get Allison?"
Mom: "WHAT! WE'RE
NOT GETTING HER
A SNUGGIE!"
Dad: "But she wanted
one!"
Mom: "Fiiiine! Get
the blue one,
I suppose."
yaaay
:D

herdaddyneverdreamed,she'dgrowupthatfastyouknowwhatimean..

the way when a girl gets
when she turns 17, kinda crazy...
♥

I feel like doing this entire job entry in bold.
Because I'm in a BOLD mood. :D
LRC: We had to print out our grades.
I showed my lrc teacher my global grade.
He didn't spazz. [thankfully] he said
he'll talk to my teacher and see if
I can get my grade up... [ya, as if that'll work]
ENGLISH: fucking pop quiz. I read the book, but
I don't remember the details...I got a D on the quiz.
She said if we bring kleenex we can get extra credit.
MATH: we took that test. I got double-pluses [meaning A's]
for the "targets" or lessons that were being locked in. :) they gave
us 84 problems of math, though. those jackasses!
GYM: we played basketball. I made a new friend named Megan. xD
LSC: I worked on math and did a stupid essay we had to do about respect.
LUNCH: everyone was at snowball [camp..I wanted to go!]
ohmygod, and, plus..Green jacket guy wasn't there today.
Maybe he was at snowball...I dunno.. =[
WEB DESIGN: we took a test. not hard.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: we spend half the period going off topic;
my teacher didn't try to get us BACK on topic. so we got homework
in that too. great.
BIOLOGY: review worksheet. some other worksheet. not hard.

HOMEWORK: 84 problems of Math
30 pages of reading The Alchemist
And reading some two sided thing for global.

she always had
a thing about
fallin' in love
with a bad boy♥

bigblackhorse&acherrytree

I can't quite get there 'cause my heart's forsaken me
Big black horse and a cherry tree...

LRC: I was looking at William a lot.
And well, he was getting in trouble
for not doing anything.
Teacher: "Get a book out."
Him: "I don't have a book."
Teacher: "Then read the newspaper."
Him: "What newspaper?"
Teacher: "I don't know. Find a newspaper.
Read the sports section."
Him: "I don't like sports"
[*HUGSWILLIAM*]
Me: "OKAY.." *gets book out of
my backpack and walks over
to William's desk*
*gives him the book*
William: *stares at me*
Me: *walks back to my seat*
"THERE! NOW READ THE
BOOK!"
Teacher: "THANK YOU, Allison"
Me: :D
William: "This doesn't sound like a good book.."
Me: "READ IT!"
Teacher: "YEAH! READ THE FIRST CHAPTER!"
William: "Fine, fine. I will." *reads first chapter*
<15>
"OKAY! I READ THE FIRST CHAPTER! now what?"
Teacher: "There's 25 minutes left. Read more."
William: "WHAT?!!? I'll just read the back over and over."
Me: *laughs*
ENGLISH: not much. boring stuff...
MATH: fucking two-sided worksheet. there was 42 problems. I got 20 wrong.
See, A LOT of people got a lot of problems wrong. tomorrow's a 4 day weekend.
and he's giving us a huge-ass fucking packet. jackass. tomorrow we have a test, too.
GYM: I told him. I told David we're not going to turnabout. I said that there's a family thing
I have to do. (WHICH ISN'T A LIE!)
LSC: I finished my math homework
LUNCH: I ATE. xD OH, and green jacket guy was looking at me today. XD
WEB DESIGN: we did a project builder..I finished it. (: test tomorrow. oshit.
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: boring stuff.
BIOLOGY: worksheets. packets. yeah.

alliwannadoisbewithyou,bewithyou

There's nothing we can't do,
just wanna be with you, only you

♥[Matt Prokop]♥

LRC: we had a SUB. omg, so many damn subs!
:( Tim talked to me though. and William said
HI to me. :D :D :D :D :D (ya, I know, I'm that
stupid) XD
ENGLISH: we wrote a paragraph about what stops dreams.
I wrote about discouragement. In the middle of class some hot
emo guy came walking in..and he was staring at me and smiled. He sat
right behind me, too. :D :D :D
BEFORE MATH: I was walking to Math..and I saw this one guy.
I don't know his name. We don't have any classes together.
We have lunch, but that doesn't count. I call him green-jacket guy.
He always wears a green jacket. He looks like a William..but I
think every long-haired guy is a William. [William Beckett♥]
MATH: stupid 50 problem double sided worksheet.
GYM: I took the LONG way to avoid David. This is first day
on Operation: Ignore David..or OID for short. xD He's super
annoying though. blah. Cecy and I were talking about our crushes-a
guy asked her to turnabout, too..she said yes. BUT he already bought tickets.
David didn't even bother to BUY tickets..soyah.
Cecy: "I know what you're feeling though."
Me: "What do you mean?"
Cecy: "Jesus [PROUNCED HAY-ZEUS THOUGH, FYI] is being all weird.
Like he's ALWAYS around me. I think both of 'our' guys are
2 words: Obsessed and Clingy."
Me: "I'm kinda clingy, too.."
Cecy: "Not you! I mean HIMMMM"
Me: "I know. He is..I mean, I want space. I don't even like him anymore."
Cecy: "Yeah, I can see why. Have you told him.."
Me: "NO! I can't!"
Cecy: "You HAVE to. If you don't wanna go, that is."
Me: "I know. I will."
--
We were playing some stupid soccer game. D:< I went on another team
opposite from David's. I think he likes this other loudmouth girl. TG.
PLEASEMOVEON,DAVID! srsly. I'd be soo happy if he did. I don't
want a relationship. My parents won't let me date anyway..not at my age.
LSC: I finished my math..and some of my english [we're reading the alchemist]
LUNCH: I talked to Paige again, today. :D
WEB DESIGN: we finished chapter5. one more chapter and we're done
with Adobe dreamweaver..and I need to think of a website idea.
[ANY IDEAS?!]
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: sucked. social contract. blahblahblah. D:
It went up from a 63 to a 65 though. Yay? xD
BIOLOGY: HOLYSHIT. we had this really crazy sub. OMG. I hate her.
She's so stupid! D= she saw me and waved at me. I was like *HIDES*
Delaney and I had fun messing with Mirik's stuff. whatever..I can't spell his name!
hahaha. Delaney and I got his #! It was in his assignment notebook. xD
HOMEWORK: english. I'll do it in lrc. XD
LISTENING TO: A Night To Remember-HSM3 Soundtrack

tell me why

I took a chance, I took a shot
and you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
and down here from the ground I see who you are
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love then you cut me down
and I need you like a heartbeat
but you know you got a mean streak
makes me run for cover when you're around
and heres to you and you're temper
yes, I remember what you said last night
and I know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why
You could write a book on how to ruin someones perfect day
well I get so confused and frustrated
forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
you tell me that you want me, then push me around
and I need you like a heartbeat
but you know you got a mean streak
makes me run for cover when you're around
and heres to you and you're temper
yes, I remember what you said last night
and I know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why
Why do you have to make me feel small
so you can feel whole inside
why do you have to put down my dreams
so you're the only thing on my mind
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
you tell me that you want me then you cut down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
you ask me to love you then you push me around
heres to you and you're temper
yes, I remember what you said last night
and I know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why, why, tell me why
I take a step back, let you go
told you Im not bulletproof, now you know

itakeastepback&letyougo..

I told you I'm not bulletproof,
now you know..

♥

BEFORE SCHOOL: isawbrandon(: we talked for a few minutes.
happy, happy, happy day.sofaratleast..
LRC: our teacher was half an hour late..oiwonderwhy..XD
ENGLISH: we were reading and I finished Dreadlocks,
so now I'm reading this book called
"The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night" by Mark Haddon.
It's pretty interesting so far. I'm on page 50. :D
MATH: we did this super easy thing in math.
I finished the homework, so I talked to Ashley. xD
GYM: ohjeez. gym=suckish. my teacher was like
"OKAY, you have to be partners with someone..."
I was like "CECYYYYYYY.." and then she was like "OF THE OPPOSITE SEX!"
I was like "FUCK!" and then David was like *ZOOMZ TOWARDS ALLISON*
ughgod. I don't like David anymore. I dunno..I just..I..don't like him. He still
wants to go to turnabout. I don't want to go. He said "well, we could still eat
dinner afterwards." uhm, no. :/ he doesn't GET it! I feel so bad. After I told David I would go to turnabout I really didn't want to go. I didn't know what to say! I can't reject anyone. Not a guy.
I can't do that. I'd rather go to turnabout with Brandon... *sigh* TG
I talked to him today before school. that srsly made my day. :)
LSC: Nothing big. I just read my new book :D
LUNCH: I talked to one of the Miller sisters [they're both super-nice!]
& I made a new friend with one of them.
WEB DESIGN: we took a test! I failed it, probably. shit.
I'm getting an A in that class, so it shouldn't...go..down..that bad.
HOPEFULLY? D:
GLOBAL CONNECTIONS: stupid stuff. we took a quiz. I'm PRETTY freaking
sure I did a good job on it. I'll freaking CRY if I get a bad job on it. D:< BIOLOGY: it was great. I talked to my teacher afterwards.
I got an A on my test! WOOOOOO!

LISTENING TO: See You Again-Miley Cyrus (blah. I put it on my JUNO cd for no
fucking reason..XD)

PS: ofuck, I started singing. DAMN YOU MILEY! D:<

juno

OMG,
I'm now
obsessed
with Juno.
[again]

:D

" All I want is you, will you be my bride?
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea."

BRING OUT THE
ORANGE JUICE
&THE ORANGE TIC-TACS
(: